Change is my WORST enemy

Change is something that I never really dealt with and tried to avoid because it’s scary. So lately I’ve been in to these good morning texts or getting a text when I wake up in the morning from someone, but it’s beginning to not happen anymore. I was never big on “Good Morning” texts. I used to hate them and think it was way too much. [This was when I had tough skin though] I still have tough skin, but I never knew how special it felt to get a text from somebody every day before you wake up, but now I understand how my friends felt when they bragged about them to me. [Of course I was on the sideline being a hater] I must admit it felt good waking up receiving a message from someone you really like, but what do you when it stops? Do you just text them first and start their day since they’re always starting yours? Or, over think the situation and negative thoughts become clashing through your mind? Well, the last one is me. I am an over thinker. My friends tell me all the time to keep my options open and don’t settle for one guy, but when I talk to several people at once and I actually like the “one guy” that over shadows everybody else. He’s who gets the most attention, but now I’m starting to think maybe my friends were right. I think I let him in too much and although I still have my guard up I might have put it down a few times. See those are the things I over think about because I just don’t know what to think. It felt good for awhile because that’s something I never experienced ya know? I never had a guy to text me first thing in the morning or being on his mind pretty much all day so when it does happen it makes me feel special, but it’s a different feeling at the same time. I know a lot people find it hard that I never really came across a good guy I mean ‘GOOD GUY”. The last guy I talked to he expected too much and was too dramatic, but he made me feel beautiful. He boosted my confidence that I lost. So I don’t know I over think things so maybe something could be wrong….we shall see!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!