Hey I heard YOU WERE A WILD ONE

Have you ever worked a job and they worked you EVERY weekend? You thought to yourself how your life sucked because you never had a weekend to yourself? BUT when you finally start getting weekends to yourself NOBODY is doing a damn thing. What do you do????

I remember working at Old Navy and I worked all weekend. I would get off at ten and all my friends are out and about. I used to hate my job then. When I started working at the YMCA I was geeked because I thought, “Whoopie!!! We close at six and I can have my weekends to myself.” Well guess who get the freaking slap in the mofo face.-à* *ß Yup you guessed right, I did. I found myself getting jealous of my friends going out and having a life because I didn’t. I began asking myself questions like these…How come I can’t party every weekend? Get drunk and crash at my friend house? Have something planned when I get my schedule for the month? Then it hit me.....BAM!!! Just like that….

I’m scared to become the ‘wild one,” I never was that person so I don’t know what it’s like to be live. This summer I want to have the time of my life. No rules, no boys, no obstacles, JUST FUN!!!! So why haven’t I done that tonight on my off DAY?...Simply because I am in one of those moods today. In between fixing this paper and feeling down I don’t know what to do. Every now and then I think about my horrible past and I began to distance myself from people like I did today. I ignored some texts, barely talked on the phone, and even lied about how I was doing so I don’t have to talk about it. I can tell that I will probably be in this mood for the rest of the week. It sucks because nobody can deal with me when I’m like this. Hmmm on a better note……

So I’m on an adventure to close my boring weekends and open up new ones. Finals are almost over and I’m dying for a drink. I don’t want to remember anything I just want to get FADED.